Sleep like a log. Dream of Touhous and magic. Wake, roll over into your chair, start typing. Use this as my power-writing anthem on repeat (there’s a nice way to conceal URLs but I forget):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SR7NbTcWILc&feature=BFa&list=PL22D8BED0BEB295F7 I stopped when I started feeling sick again, but this should tide you over for now.
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RESULTS [X] …
accept graciously. You took from Ran a portion of her own freedom two years ago. It’s only fair that you give her a portion of your own freedom as well in return. Granted, your situation was one of life or death for Gensokyo, even if that was merely a side-result of your revenge on Him… but her case is little different, of life or death for all of you just the same.
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“… get off the ground,” you grumble.
Ran shakes her head vigorously. “Not until you accept. We – “
“Fine. Then get
off.”
Ran’s ears flick up in sudden interest underneath her hat, causing two peaks to form. “You mean…”
“Or does whatever ritual you require need you to be in that position?” you snap.
Seeing her slightly stung face, you avert your gaze for a second in embarrassment. “Sorry.” You tilt your head another few degrees, converting your gesture to a pointed look towards the wall, behind which is a being with a power that quite frankly leaves you terrified. “We haven’t time. Just get on with it.”
Gracefully rising to her feet from her kowtow, Ran steps closer to you. “Ah, no, there’s, there’s no ritual. No preparations. I – I didn’t expect you to accept so fast,” she laughs, nervously, almost as if she expects you to suddenly change your mind. “I mean, you seemed so – angry when I was talking about contracts earlier, that – “
“That was for a different reason. This – we – are different.” You turn back towards her, giving her a quick look. She took another step while you weren’t paying attention; her face is now a mere hand’s breath from yours. She’s breathing slightly faster than normal, perhaps due to her own nerves; as warm air washes over your face, you reflexively narrow your eyes, an action that makes her back off, ducking her own head in sheepish realization. “There are some… debts that are to be paid.”
“I don’t understand.”
You steal a second glance at her; the kitsune’s eyes are wide, making her look surprisingly vulnerable. Chen has slipped somewhat behind her master, but leans to one side, watching the two of you talk. You recall what you did with her; that unforgivable action of holding her hostage, then using that to bend her master, her guardian, to your will.
You can’t ever fully atone for those actions, but you can try.
“You don’t have to, then. We have to do this,” you echo mockingly, trying to cover your own reluctance with scorn.
“I – I won’t force you into anything you don’t want to do,” she stammers, now rocking onto her proverbial back foot. Gods, this is the exact sort of thing you and Marcus agreed to never do: dance back and forth and try to bargain with each other over issues. It wastes time, precious time that could be spent doing more useful things. Things like preparing to stop an aberration.
Just like you could be doing now.
“
Fine. Then I
do want this, Ran. Don’t question your luck, or your own motives for this. Just know that you’re
not forcing anything on me.” Despite yourself, you feel a small smile flit onto your face, blossoming from some repressed place within you. “You’ll know when the contract is in place. After all – “
Four warm fingers suddenly wrap themselves over your mouth, anchored by a thumb around your chin. The owner of those fingers takes yet another step towards you, her arm folding between the two of you. If not for that arm, the two of you would be appear to be embracing, her feet now fitting between yours. Ran’s eyes are glistening with – something. You trained yourself to identify emotion, figure out how to exploit it, and get what you need, and out of this exact woman in front of you on less, so why – why do you feel nothing more than a muzzy confusion right now?
“ –
there’s nothing a shikigami’s master doesn’t know from her servant.” She whispers it in a hush, as if not believing the scene before her. As if seeing a dream fulfilled against all expectations to the contrary.
A heartbeat passes, and then without a further word of doubt, she begins.
Making bonds of this kind must be a natural instinct or power of hers, because it occurs without any outward preparation whatsoever. You let a nebulously powerful
wish spell handle the affairs and write over the contract with Lady Yukari, but it feels as if everything that’s happening is intentionally guided by her own purposeful thought.
You were aware of how invasive the shikigami bond is, having been Ran’s master for a short time before, but experiencing the servant end of it is something else entirely. There’s no way to completely describe it in terms of physical sensation. The initiation is almost timid, reminding you of a child afraid to ask its guardian for a favor, or perhaps an admirer approaching the object of her affection for the first time in person.
The magic is of the voluntary kind, a boon merely offered and not forced upon its target, not unlike many of your own protecting and enhancing enchantments. Like an outstretched hand, it asks you to accept, not forcing anything upon you, willing to withdraw and fade at the slightest sign of reluctance.
And it’s without any reluctance that you seize this hand and draw it to you, willing it to do whatever it needs to.
Now accepted, this metaphorical offer dissolves, flowing into what makes you
you, your mind and soul, everything that you
are, into every locked closet hiding an army of skeletons, turning you inside out until no thought of yours is hidden. The presence of another’s mind within your own isn’t completely unknown to you; both your former master and Marcus had used telepathy in various forms to communicate with you at some point in time, and you yourself had picked Ran’s mind experimentally, once. But that communication was always of the voluntary kind; telepathy isn’t mindreading, after all, and you intentionally avoided scouring Ran’s mind and thoughts when you found it impossibly complex with dozens if not hundreds or thousands of layers of thought – and to preserve her own privacy and dignity when you realized just how invasive it was, even if you weren’t about to admit that. This is involuntary exposure; the vulnerability of being completely and brutally cross-examined at Ran’s convenience.
The landscape of your mind isn’t like the tightly knit, distinct packages that you found in Ran’s mind, like a cache of artistic artifacts awaiting scrutiny. Instead, it’s an ocean of steel. Hundreds of years of training make up your core, fire-forged into a massive iron sphere that keeps you together. Once upon a time, this shell – for that was what it was, despite its relatively high volume – concealed a vehement, murderous desire for revenge at its own center, but it’s now hollow inside, a titanic jail without an inmate to contain. Memories, also solid whether inscribed on large irregular pieces or sculpted into nests of intricately interwoven wires, float around this massive like satellites around a planetoid. Your surface thoughts, this very analysis included, flow in molten currents all throughout, burning in colors ranging from an almost-solid, barely-present, stagnant dull red to a rapidly-flowing, currently-focused, shining white.
A shiver runs down your spine as you feel Ran’s scrutiny for just a second, a wave of pressure that sends ripples through your rivers of thought, sending your memories spinning in eddies. It washes up against the monolith of your training, and, uncharacteristically for a wave, pauses as if surprised, spreading out as if to try and cover and surround it. Simultaneously, the wave pushes away towards one of those floating memories, a recent one of your time sparring with Youmu. As your discomfort rises to the forefront of your mind, the liquid metal that the foreign presence in your mind inhabits bubbles restlessly, expressing your feelings, and the pressure suddenly disappears, as if realizing its own existence, just as you had unconsciously probed Ran’s own mind within seconds of the contract’s creation.
All of this happens in less than two seconds. Children have been conceived in exchanges less intimate than this.
You don’t feel particularly stronger at the moment, but Ran did say that the master had to give orders. The feeling of being unwrapped and exposed, though, remains. You wonder just how she and Chen tolerate it all the time; perhaps they just come to tolerate it, or perhaps the sensation, currently fresh and raw, dulls in time.
“… thank you,” your
new master sighs breathlessly, bringing you back to the present. She closes her eyes as her shoulders sag with sudden fatigue, her body leaning forwards even further as her posture slouches. The hand slides away from your lips as her arm starts to return to its position at her side – then returns to gently nudge your chin to one side with a finger, tilting your head ever so slightly as she continues her forward lean.
The inch or so between you is about to disappear. You’re of about the same height, so this means that –
– why is it so hard to think right now?
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CHOOSE YOUR ANALYSIS OF UNEXPECTED INTIMATE ACTIVITY
[ ]
This is ceremonial. Magic often nudges its users towards various unnecessary actions, just as you and Marcus felt the need to vocally proclaim the forging of the bond. This must be Ran’s way of confirming the contract the two of you just created.
-[ ] If this is just ceremonial, then she won’t mind it if you pull away.
-[ ] … there’s no reason to deny it and make a fuss over a little thing like this.
[ ]
This is familial. A good master cares for her servants, which is exactly why Chen was such a strong point of leverage. This is just her way of expressing that feeling.
-[ ] If this is just familial, then you should probably refuse. It’s a bit demeaning to be treated like a child.
-[ ] … it’s nice to be cared for like this again. It’s been so very long since someone worried for you like your late master did.
[ ]
This is romantic. Maybe it’s just the Hope euphoria coming back? You hope that, at least. You didn’t see this one coming – how long has she been feeling this, and – why would she feel like this about you, after everything you’ve put her through?
-[ ] If this is romantic… no. You don’t feel this way, there’s no reason you would ever have to feel this way, and this nonsense should stop before a misunderstanding arises.
-[ ] … you can’t resist. You don’t understand where this is coming from, and yet this simply feels natural, like something you should be doing.
-[ ] Inexperienced virgin anemia option. Then BAD END because Yuyuko eats you all while you’re too busy swooning. [ ] Write-in analysis?
-[ ] Reaction?
Remember that Ran can know exactly what you’re thinking. Don’t be a tsundere voter and vote for something you don’t actually feel – this is your innermost, most honest possible thought.
Despite being a relatively short, crappy update, the Possibility of Romance means that this will probably end up seeing a disproportionate number of votes. You horndogs.