Though I’m annoyed that she seems to have invaded my room without my permission yet again, I can’t seem to find it in myself to really hold a grudge against her for it. I guess it’s not a big deal to just sleep on the sofa again. I heave a sigh, rubbing the back of my neck as I watch the girl sleep, her chest peacefully heaving up and down steadily as she breathes, a light snore coming from her.
Making my way over to the girl and looking down at her face, I resist the urge to pinch her cheek. She fidgets slightly in her sleep, shifting her body to get a little more comfortable. Honestly, she looks so vulnerable right now, although I suppose she’s not exactly on-guard when she’s awake, either. What’s going on in that crazy little head of hers? That’s something I certainly can’t understand at all.
Thinking on it now, I find myself wondering about this girl a little more. That... outburst last night, the little mental breakdown she had, or whatever the hell it was. What was that? Did the injury to her head trigger some kind of... a personality change, or something? Maybe the little jolt to the brain ended up causing some kind of temporary insanity? No, wait, I suppose in this case it might be temporary sanity...
...Well, whatever it was, it’s making me feel a bit worried about this girl. She looked so scared, so panicked, even as she tried to attack me. It was nothing like the bubbly and quirky way she always acts. Not to mention that thing her apparent childhood acquaintance said about her. That she was a delicate girl, and that I shouldn’t treat her harshly. What... exactly did A. mean by that? And why won’t she tell me..."
Scowling, I shake my head and turn away from the girl. Well, if the problem ever comes up again, I suppose I’ll deal with it then. And if it never does crop up, then that’s just as well. I’m not some kind of a therapist or a humanitarian; I’m not going to actively seek out a way to help anyone I meet. Like I said before, I’m fine with not understanding people. It’s too much of a hassle to even try, and all it accomplishes is stress your brain out.
Walking back to the door, I glance back at the bed as my hand hovers over the light switch. Before I shut off the lights and head out of the door, I part my lips and whisper, “...Good night.”
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http://tindeck.com/listen/zfmu)
I tried to reach for the sky.
I lifted my hand up. Raising my arm above me, I tried to reach as far as I can. But the tips of my finger just would not touch the sky, no matter how far I reached. The joints of my fingers creaked and cracked, threatening to dislocate themselves if my fingertips rose even a millimeter further.
However, still, I could not reach for the sky.
”...help me...” I wonder why it is that I wanted so badly to touch the sky.
I think I left something very important to me there.
Something very precious.
Something that could never be replaced, no matter how hard I tried to.
What was it, I wonder?
Slowly, I lower my hand, and look down at it. There, resting gently on my palm, I see a single white feather. It shimmers in the dark, giving off its own light, shining in the darkness that surrounds it. Even though it is only a single feather, I find myself mesmerized by its simple beauty.
Is this what I was looking for..."
No.
But looking at this feather, I feel, somehow, that I am closer now to what I’ve been trying to reach.
...That’s right. I remember now.
I have my own set of wings.
The wings I built to fly me into the sky.
So, standing on the tips of my toes and reaching up to the sky once more
I unfold the black wings at my back, and take off into the air.
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November 11, Wednesday Arc: Twins / Dream
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Thump!
I roll off the couch and hit the floor face-first, the impact jolting me awake and scaring off any morning grogginess I might have had lingering about had I awakened normally. In exchange, however, it leaves behind a pain that almost makes me yelp out, though I manage to restrain myself as I rub my poor, reddened nose, having taken the brunt of the fall.
Sitting up, I find my limbs tangled in the same blanket I found by me yesterday morning. Freeing myself from it, in a bad mood, I kick it away from me, lifting myself off the floor to settle down in the couch again while scratching my head. Damn, what a way to start the day. Did I dream of falling from a skyscraper or something? Even now, when I close my eyes, I seem to remember the feeling of sailing through the air, though probably not in a way I would have wanted.
...I dunno if it’s just because I slept on a cramped couch, or because I slept in an uncomfortable position, or if I’ve just been pushing myself over the last few days, but my body doesn’t feel well today. My shoulders feel like they’ve got some heavy burden on them, and my joints are protesting mildly against me whenever I move. This is definitely not a good start to a day at all.
Oh well, lately, I’ve been going outside a little too much. Maybe today I should just relax a little and take it easy. No unnecessary trips outside. Just lounging around being lazy like I’ve been doing for the last few years. It may have felt monotonous and devoid of life during that time period, but it would be quite welcoming given how hectic the last two weeks have been for me, with all of this crazy shit happening to me almost out of the blue.
I stifle a yawn, having come to a decision. Lying back down on the couch, I grab the heaped blanket on the floor and toss it over myself, clenching my eyes shut. Yeah, I think today, I’ll just sleep all day...
...
Whump!
Ugh...
“Wake up. Breakfast is ready.”
Once again, I find myself having to peel my face off the floor. In a dazed stupor, I look about me with sluggish motions of the head, finding a pair of feminine legs clad in pants at my eyelevel. Slowly looking up, I see Yuuka standing over me with her arms crossed together sternly, though her expression suggests she’s more amused. Completely out of it, I can’t tell if I’d simply fallen off the couch again on my own, or if I was shoved off.
“You look terrible today,” the woman says to me, before shrugging her shoulders and turning away to walk to the dining table.
By the time I’ve recovered enough to make my way to my seat, everyone has gathered. I mumble a good morning to them, taking into my hand my chopsticks. Having just woken up, I don’t really have much of an appetite, but I force the bits of egg into my mouth anyway, knowing that by the time I do have one, it’d probably be already time for a lunch snack anyway.
“Yikes, you don’t look well,” Elly comments, looking at me with a somewhat horrified face.
“And you’re looking great,” you throw back at her in a tired, scratchy voice. “...Must be nice to be a youkai, recovering from mortal injuries in just two days’ rest.”
“It’s not all sunshine and daisies,” she throws back, stuffing her mouth with her food. “...Anyway, I’m going back to work today. I’m going to ask that Renko kid some things before we do anything. Don’t follow me, you got that?”
“Yeah, yeah,” I say, not really minding what she says much.
After everyone’s finished with breakfast, Elly leaves for her work, and I see her off at the front gate. Heading back into the living room, I sink down on the couch next to Yuuka, who’s sipping from a cup filled with coffee. Letting out a groan, I lean back on the headrest, staring up at the ceiling. Yup, this is definitely an “off” day for me, alright. I don’t really feel much motivation to do anything right now...
“Are you feeling alright today, Leader?” the woman with the teacup calls out to me, turning to glance at me with that smile/sneer.
“...the hell is that?” I say, feeling like I’m being mocked.
“You’re the leader, aren’t you? In this little war game we’ve gone and gotten involved in.”
“This isn’t a game,” I say, annoyed and cranky. “It might seem like a game to you, but it’s not.”
“Well, if the leader says so, then that must be true,” she says, her sneer showing through the smile and becoming more obvious. “Fine. This isn’t a game, then. But, wouldn’t it be more interesting to think of it as a game?”
“Playing with peoples’ lives shouldn’t be a game at all,” I say, shaking my head.
“Oh?” she widens her smile, sipping from her cup. “Why not? People use game pieces to play games all the time, don’t they? If people can use game pieces however they wish in a game, then what’s wrong with someone else using people to play a game?”
“People aren’t game pieces, that’s what,” I say, getting more and more aggravated, despite
knowing that that’s precisely what she’s after.
“What separates a person from a mere game piece, then?” she asks.
“Well, a person is alive, for one thing. They can think, and they can feel.”
“So, for you, the state of living and free will gives value to something?” she asks, closing one eye in thought. She lifts her cup to her lips again, taking a small sip before continuing. “...But, those are only things that
you hold in high esteem. To someone who couldn’t care less about them, to whom such things have absolutely no value, there is no difference between a person and a game piece. Between a some
one and a some
thing.”
“What are you trying to say?” I say, raising an eyebrow. “That you don’t care about people?”
“Goodness, did I say that?” she says, feigning surprise. “I was only explaining how someone could see people as mere objects.”
“...Whatever, I don’t need a lecture from
you,” I say, turning away from her to mind my own business.
“Mm,” she merely nods, looking satisfied as she looks back to the lit television screen.
“Hey, mister,” Kurumi says out of nowhere, popping up from the side of the sofa and damn near giving me a heart attack in the process. Crouched on the floor, with only her head popping up above the armrest, she waits until I’ve recovered to start speaking, “I’ve been kind of wondering, but what’s in the box here?”
“Huh? A box...?” I repeat, leaning forward. Oh, she must be referring to the cardboard box stashed in the corner. Getting up from the sofa, I walk on over to it, looking down at it as the vampire girl follows behind me. Squatting down, I open up the box, looking inside. “...Man, how nostalgic.”
Inside, I see my old,
old video game console and a small library of games for it. I brought them with me when I moved out, not because I still played them, but because I just couldn’t bear to sell them or to throw them out. They’re all still functional, as far as I know. Actually, this gives me a bit of an idea. So, Yuuka wants to play a game, does she..."Well, maybe she should give
actual games a try.
[ ] ...Hm, nah. This is a bad idea.
[ ] Hell, why not?