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I don’t understand. Why is she asking me this…? Where do dreams go? I’ve… never thought about something like that before. I’ve never had to. Something as immaterial as a dream, I never bothered to consider it. Most of the time, I can’t even remember what I was dreaming about when I wake up in the morning. Just… how am I supposed to answer something like that?
I hang my head in silence, trying to think of something to say. It’s no good. I’m drawing a total blank here. I wish I had something deep and profound to reply to her with, but really, I’ve got nothing at all. While I’m contemplating this, I feel the slender arms around my neck move down to my waist, as Kana presses herself even further against my back, resting her head on one of my shoulders.
It’s driving me crazy, having her so close like this. My cheeks burn bright red, and my poor heart is strains itself to keep beating at its presently rapid rate. It’s so distracting that I can’t even concentrate on trying to think of which words to choose. But at the same time, it feels so wonderful. I haven’t known an embrace like this since…
…That’s right. I don’t know what to say. But I do know what I want.
I don’t want her to disappear.
“…No, nothing can ever really vanish,” I begin to speak, meekly and a little unsure at first, though a growing confidence slowly enables me to speak at a higher voice. “Even if you wake up from a dream, you can still see that dream again, right? That is, if you truly want to see it again…”
I don’t know what I’m saying or even if it makes sense, but I just keep talking anyway, because I’m afraid to stop.
“Kana,” I call her name, turning my head to look at her. She raises her gaze to meet mine, our heads only a couple of inches apart from one another. “If this is a dream, then I’d like for it to last forever.”
She smiles, caressing my cheek with her hand. “…Do you really mean that, master?”
My answer isn’t in the form of words. Slowly, I close my eyes. Heart beating furiously, I lean in close—so close that I can feel her short breaths on my face as the tips of our noses nearly touch. I can’t think of anything but her right now. Kana. Kana. Kana. Kana. Kana…
But our lips don’t meet.
She raises a finger and presses it against my lips, stopping me. Surprised, I open my eyes as she pushes herself away from me gently with a devilish, mischievous grin. She closes her eyes for a brief moment as she shakes her head, the one arm still wrapped around my waist releasing me as she floats up into the air as Kana once again hovers before me.
Goddamn it.
“…Master, would you like to know what this place is?” she asks me as she lands on the floor noiselessly, her hands folded together behind her once more. As she continues to speak, she makes a waving gesture toward the open windows, and to my great surprise, sunlight begins to shine in through the opening, illuminating the once-darkened room. “It’s a wonderful vacation home.”
She stops, looking toward the door. She reaches out with her hand and gives a push, and the door immediately springs open. But even with the sunlight shining in through the open windows, I can’t make out what’s beyond the doorway; all I can see is total darkness, unable to be penetrated by even a single ray of light.
“Kana…?” I mutter as I stand up from the bed, taking a step toward her.
“Do you remember Miss Ana’s request?” she asks, twisting about to face me. “What she desired to see the most.”
“Um…”
“The sea,” she answers for me, putting on a crooked smile. “She wanted to see the sea, and her parents agreed to grant that request. That’s why… they came here, when summer finally arrived.”
She turns again, facing the door. Taking a hold of the brim of her hat, she lifts it from her head, and hugs it very tightly, very fondly, to herself before lightly tossing it toward the doorway. The hat spins through the air, before being swallowed up by the darkness beyond the open door. Straightening herself, she lowers her head and waits in silence.
And then a girl steps into the room.
A beautiful young brunette, with long, flowing hair that almost seems blonde when exposed to the rays of the sun. Wearing a silky, elaborate red dress, she twirls about happily as she enters the room, pressing a wide brimmed hat with a ribbon adorning it—Kana’s hat—down on her head as she lets out a joyous yet completely silent laugh, the hem of her skirt whirling at her feet.
“Miss Ana was very happy,” Kana says, watching the girl with a distant smile. “She would finally be able to witness the beautiful scene of the sea. To watch the tides draw in and out, to hear the cries of seagulls as they fly overhead, and to smell the scent the summer breeze carries.”
The girl—Miss Ana, I presume—smiles happily as she walks about the room inside, looking around with excitement just like a child at an amusement park. Out of curiosity, I move toward her, reaching out with a hand. She takes no notice of me and… she passes through me, completely intangible, to go on to sit down on the bed. She lifts the hat from her head, and just as Kana had done before, she fondly clutches it to herself.
So, this is just an illusion…?
“She received a lovely hat from her mother, one that could shield her from the harsh rays of the sun.”
I look toward the open door again, and two more figures step inside. One of them is a tall, well-built man, wearing regal clothing and holding a classy gentleman’s walking stick in his hand as he steps inside. At his side is a lady, wearing clothes befitting of one and following the gentleman obediently. Ana’s father and mother…?
But their faces are completely featureless.
The faceless gentleman walks over to his daughter, and reaching out with one large hand, he places it on top of her head, gently stroking it. The lady also walks over to the girl, taking the hat from her hands and placing it on top of the girl’s head. Lovingly, the lady carefully adjusts the hat on her head, and taking a step back, claps her hands together as the girl lets out a laugh that is, once again, without sound.
“She was so very excited that she wanted to go to the beach right away, while her condition was still good.
…But,”
The light shining into the room from the window begins to wane, growing fainter and redder in color as the sun begins to set. As for the girl sitting on the bed, she suddenly begins to cough into her mouth, as her parents worriedly crowd around her. Her already pale skin seems to grow even whiter, to the point where it’s ashen. Taking a hold of her by the shoulders, her father gently allows her to rest on the bed, while her mother covers her convulsing body with a thick blanket. Her mother reaches for the girl’s hat, which had fallen from the girl’s head when she had began her fit of coughing, and places it on top of the desk.
“She suddenly became very ill again, and so once again, she was confined to her bed.”
Dusk turns to night as the gentleman and the lady leave the room, closing the door behind them. Struggling with great effort, the young girl attempts to sit up from the bed, her weak body trembling with the exertion needed to move, trying to lift her head, though she fails and slumps back down onto her pillow.
“Her condition did not improve, and so her father, frightened for the life of his child, decided to call in for a doctor. Thus he set out on a carriage, along with his wife. The nearest apothecary was only a couple hours away, after all. Miss Ana was a patient girl. She would wait for her parents’ return.”
The young girl closes her eyes, seemingly drifting asleep. Moments later, sunlight fills the room again, and the girl’s eyes flutter awake. She sits up in her bed, looking about the room with searching eyes.
“…But they weren’t there in the morning, as they had promised they would be.”
With a crestfallen look, Ana lies back down on her bed, looking up at the ceiling with her eyes wide open. They remain open, completely unblinking, as morning becomes noon and noon transforms into evening, before finally turning to night once more. A small cough escapes her lips as she continues to watch the ceiling with that hollow gaze.
“They never returned.
She wondered if something had happened to them.”
Raising herself from the bed again, Ana reaches across toward the desk, grabbing the hat sitting there. With a worried expression, she clutches the brim of her hat with her slender fingers, holding it tightly to her heart.
“’Maybe they had an accident on the way back,’ she worried.”
Her fingers clench tighter on the fabric.
“What really happened to them, she did not know. Maybe they had become involved in a crash in their carriage and died. Or… maybe
‘Maybe they’ve abandoned me,’ thought the girl.”
The girl’s eyes seem dead, her face completely devoid of any sort of expression as she sits there, still holding dearly onto that hat gifted to her by her mother. Drops of tears begin rolling down from her eyes, each little bead illuminated by the glow of the moonlight. The girl remains completely still as the sun rises once more before succumbing to the night again.
“But it didn’t matter either way. Because whether her mother and father were dead, or if they had finally grown tired of caring for her…
She was alone.
Completely alone.
Here, she had neither the love nor the care of her parents.
She had no servants who would feed or clothe her.
The nearest human contacts were much too far away for her frail body to make the trip to.
Abandoned, forsaken, and forgotten, she remained alone in this dreary prison disguised as a wonderful mansion. She was robbed of the one thing, the only thing she had ever truly wanted to do in life—and soon that would be taken from her as well.
She knew it.
She had been left to die.”
Kana, who had been standing off to the side thus far, stirs into movement, gliding over to the girl still sitting up in her bed, clutching onto her hat. She looks down at the girl, who slowly lifts her chin to return the gaze, though she gives no other reaction. Bending slightly, Kana raises her hand to the girl’s cheek, lovingly stroking it.
“And so she began to hate the world that had thrown her away.”
And as she says this, the vision of the girl in the bed begins to become transparent and faint. Her image slowly fades away from view, and the hat she’s holding in her hands gently drops to the surface of the bed. Without pause, Kana sweeps it up in her hand, and places it on top of her own head again.
For a while, we remain silent, as Kana stands there with her back turned to me, looking out the open windows next to the bed. Finally, she turns around to me with her head lowered so that I can’t make out her expression, and slowly approaches me as I stand there, transfixed. She lowers the brim of her hat over her eyes, hiding them as she raises her chin to show me a melancholic smile.
And suddenly, she leans in, standing on the tip of her toes as she wraps her arms around my body. Her lips make their way to my ear, and she whispers into it.
”I don’t want to disappear from your heart.”
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I open my eyes, and find myself in my own bed, small beads of sweat rolling down my face as I gasp for breath. It… feels like I’ve just run a marathon or something.
Immediately, I take a look around. This is my room alright. From a glance at the window, I can tell that it’s still definitely night; and pretty late at that, since it’s a lot darker now than it was before all that happened. I don’t see Kana around, though. Where… did she go?
Shaking my head and feeling slightly disoriented, I fumble my way to my door, and tug it open. I need to go wipe this sweat off. Blinking as my eyes adjust themselves to the dark, I grope a path to the bathroom, and stepping inside, I flick on the light switch. Drying my sweaty face with a towel, I toss it into a wash bin before stepping back out.
Out in the hallway, something catches my attention. The door to the room next to mine’s been left ajar. That would be the room Elly and Ellen are staying in. But beyond the door, I can see a small, greenish light illuminating a corner of the room. Carefully, I step toward the door. It’s not just light, either. From just outside the door, I can hear someone muttering inside. Because they’re speaking in a low whisper, I can’t make out who the voice belongs to.
[ ] Head inside.
[ ] Go to bed.